Desperate

Whoa oh Whoa oh oh Whoa oh Whoa oh oh Whoa oh Whoa oh oh Sixteen more of these memories Maybe this is the death of me Heats been rising this it typical Yeah I hate me but that's not original Hey Hey yeah Hey Hey yeah Hey yeah Desperate kind of reckless My attention Something that I strive for Death is Something that I think about a lot It makes me restless Hopefully one day I get it But I know that one day I could be more Check this While I'm checking Every check on my checklist Anybody show of hands if you get this Think that I forgot to mention If you got depression Then you're on the guest list To all of my music Maybe it's true I don't know what I'm doing All that I know is I wanna spread hope in a world I know is confusing All that I know is that I have been given a gift A light is inside of me Open the darkest parts of me that I know that needs to be lit Portray my emotions for all of the people That tell me that they cannot feel That shit is real Most of the people that come and that comment on all of my music They tell me that they cannot deal With all of the trauma they feel Most of their stories make me wanna kill The evil that hurt them I think that I will Swallow the pill Sorry that you have been hurt but i think it's a hill Upward that we have to climb Everybody told me that they'd rather deny Who they are as a person I do it too Part of the issue I think we're confused That's easy to do after you've been abused Stop tying the noose Everything that you do has a purpose Lesson is hard to learn but I swear to you it's worth it Hey Hey yeah Hey Hey yeah Hey yeah Sixteen more of these memories Maybe this is the death of me Heats been rising this it typical Yeah I hate me but that's not original So hypocritical cuz all I do is look back Sitting on the hill we should be climbing thinking that I lack Energy that I need to keep on going Question my motives Feeling like I am a drop in the ocean When I felt like I was down at my lowest Nobody noticed Lashed out at all of the people that love me That shit's embarrassing Breaking my character ah I dropped my integrity Well now I'm picking it up Looking around me like where is my hope and my trust Only when I start asking all the questions is when I stand up Then I take a step up the hill trynna find all my love But part of me tells me that I'll never find it Depression is how I define this How can I fight this Hey Hey yeah Hey Hey yeah Hey yeah Somebodies clipped my wings Oo ooo Now I feel I'm stuck on this planet and say I cannot breathe Is this the oxygen that does not belong inside of me Force it out with all my subconscious thoughts They say that I'm cold and lost Tell me why do I breathe I think all of us are just a little bit fractured Wake up in the morning Suicide rates are climbing got to work faster No excuse now trynna prevent a disaster Lotta people look around at the world that they live in And say they don't even wanna be in it say they wanna end it Quit with the pretending Looking like we're destined to fail When you say that you're broken and frail No man I know you're gone bail No man I know you gone leave when I'm destined to be Stuck in my senses I feel like I'm dangerous And I don't want nobody closer to me All of my biggest regrets are Hurting the people that love me Sixteen more of these memories Maybe this is the death of me Heats been rising this it typical Yeah I hate me but that's not original