Sweet Misery

Six thirty in the morning and it's already started Coming back to me the memories that I have forgotten Sweet misery Why have you come for me My agony Why do you taste so sweet To become resilient you have to break down I cannot tell you how many times I had to freak out Thinking I don't want this and that I should fucking leave now Pride walked up and he told me that I'm too proud I said thanks then I held his fucking head down Deep under the water until I thought he might drown Let him breathe for a second then told him to pipe down Threw away my own crown Told him we don't need it to be a king You can choose to love or to hate me Call it what you want but it's always the same thing I'm so sick and tired of trying to erase memories Why do all the voices in my head say they hate me Sweet misery Why have you come for me My agony Why do you taste so sweet Sweet misery Why have you come for me My agony Why do you taste so sweet I know I can be kind of aggressive Sorry if I seem like I'm super defensive I don't even care that if I am offensive I've been on the fence with quite a few things Thought that I would dead but I guess that I'm alive now To become bendable you have to break first and If you wanna do that then it fucking hurts Healing is a part of the process Painful in a way but the proofs in the concept I've been digging deep cause I wanna be happy All I ever feel is that I have to mask me What kind of way to live is that You can't live in the present if you're stuck in your past Sweet misery Why have you come for me My agony Why do you taste so sweet Sweet misery Why have you come for me My agony Why do you taste so sweet Six thirty in the morning and it's already started Calling back to me the memories that I had forgotten