Worth It

I don't wanna hear it from the posers Maybe that's why I'm a loner Money for my soul that's a no sir I'ma make it other way I was broke first I am a different breed Everything that you wanted to see You put pressure on me I'ma take it One foot in front of the other and side-stepping all of your hatred If I had to guess I think you'd hate this Never understood it but Y'all like the basics But now I finally get it it's deep in my mind More than just basics it's basics refined On an intimate level All these emotions and thoughts that I wrestle Make me feel sick and I've damaged my vessel Deeper than I could repair I'm unsettled But I wanna say I'm fine Pretend everything's alright I'm chasing the light Me I'm fine Pretend everything's alright I'm chasing the light Something I'd never say pull on the brakes that's a lie Often in anxiety got my hands tied I try to fix parts of me alone at night And all of the songs that I write I try to make something worth it Tell me is it worth it Is it worth it Maybe this could be worth it I'll be fine believing this lie if it isn't Thought that I was fine but really wasn't that's a different threat Caught between the lines of hate disgust and other stupid trends Fought the propaganda of society that tried to get Me to sell my soul for shit I know I only would regret I digress What's worth it is the pain that I've endured To push myself to this point of no return So that I could rest assured that I'm never gonna slip back Hi Zach Been a minute since we last talked A lot has happened in our lives so let's go take a walk You don't listen to me and you never have But before we get into that Why do you regret the past Well that answer is easy A lot of this stuff isn't breezy Moments of joy they are fleeting Free me, sick of this feeling, I'm freezing Didn't just say I was cold, I was screaming Most of my friends turned their backs, I was bleeding I still stood up, took a step towards my dream and Fighting my demons All alone looking for weakness I Can't be no more no more Swear to God that I've had enough Screw that fight back fight back But I can't cause I'm too cut up and I That's an excuse Wanna be better than being better Open up your eyes if you wanna be unfettered Meeting your demise is what happens if you give in to the pressure Worked hard so that every line is a treasure ah So when they ask me if it's worth it you know the answer I can fucking reach people who are dying inside is this worth it All of it is yes But I wanna say I'm fine Pretend everything's alright I'm chasing the light