Wishing It Was

Beauty and grace is what touches me most Good times can put me in fear I always feel safe when things are bad So I can not let you come near It seems that I thrive on the dark side of things I always feel alive when the death bell rings Now you have come and bring out the tears in me Pain never makes me cry But happiness does It's so strange to watch my life walk by Wishing it was Wishing it was more like a fantasy Where everyday surprises me Wishing it was This feeling won't last 'Cause I can not survive I tell you I've been here before When it's movin' this fast