Story for Another Day

I never thought I'd be a victim I was raped when I was 7 and I lost faith in the system Day after day I felt like he was booze the way he was addicted He told me if I told someone he would take away what I was gifted What I felt when I was 7 I'm 17 And i still feel it I was raped by my soccer coach that's why im losing I trust Nobody knew behind closed doors what he does  Every night I hear his voice when he says it's only us Being robbed of your innocence and purity  hurts so much At that age and point in time I was filled with hatred For those who can relate knows how it feels to be violated They say time is the best healer and I'm actually losing paitence Let me tell you the story let me tell you what happened I just started doing school I was only seven I know my peers can relate when I say thats when we all had it Happiness love peace a drive of a young little savage But that was taken from me I'm trying to heal through time but impatient with me Till this day I still feel the way he creeped up on me He took off my clothes in the shower and told me it's just you and me I told him no He shoved me against the wall and started punching Helpless af He took out his dick and  told me start sucking He saw when I was other kids I was still struggling He saw that I was always down deep down I'm suffering That rapist looked me in eye and taught me how to act in public The same coach with evil eyes and devil's words to encourage Me to pretend that I  I do love it And every time the team's away that's when I do want it That's what he made me believe He told me that i always wanted this I was just too naive Till this day what I see in the mirror is what he sees I'm his sex slave and that is what he means But this is a story for another day I'm looking for the right words I don't know what to say I hope I live to tell this story for another day Sometimes time doesn't have timing and that's all for today