Mental illness

I been going through changes Thinking to myself is it better in hell Cause I wanna know if it got the finer things And I know I need help pills always find a way In to my hands Don't understand why these thoughts pop in my head Maybe I'm better off just dead Overdose instead Why niggas think all you need is bread And I ain't got a broken heart but depression really doing it's best Yea I ain't got a broken heart but depression really doing it's best Putting me to the test I Notice that I am a mess think of myself something lesser You ain't want help when I was at my worst And it won't be a best No it won't be a best