Reckless

Turn all the lights off, and lock the door I need to get out, into the world My life is so stale, my heart is sore I wanna feel like I'm something more Recently life has been such a nightmare I barely have the energy to fix my hair Or pull my gaze from a vacant stare Finding it hard to even care So sick of my head keeping me down I'm gonna go out and paint the town Life should be a party, let me forget how At the rate that I'm going, I'll be dead before I'm 20 now Give me a shot, god I really need a cigarette I'm down for really anything, I'll take your little bet Another hit, another shot, it's been an awful November Let's have the best night that we'll never remember Forget all the meaninglessness in your life Leave it behind tonight I wanna be reckless, don't wanna be home I'm tired of spending all my nights alone I wanna get faded, I wanna let go I can't wait to see what the night has in store I want entertainment, don't wanna be bored I wanna feel so very adored I wanna be senseless, and lose all control Tonight is the night, I wanna be more Reckless Reckless Sitting all alone on a Tuesday night The end of my cigarettes' the only light Been on a bender since last years' November And now it's late July I haven't felt pain since, I can't remember To the dopamine rush, I've all but surrendered I've fallen in love for the thousandth time With a high and some little white lines My friends and my family, they all wonder why When they ask me what I'm doing, I just deny Pupils are dilated, brain cells annihilated Couldn't care less 'cause it's fun I wanna be reckless, don't wanna be home I don't really care if I'm all alone I wanna get faded, I wanna let go I can't wait to see what the night has in store I want entertainment, don't wanna be bored I wanna feel so very adored I wanna be senseless, and lose all control Tonight is the night, I wanna be more (Reckless) There's no light at the end of the tunnel But maybe I'm too blind to see Words not spoken, I'm so broken I'm so broken, Fix me please I'm tired of being high, I can't stand being numb I hate all the vices, hate all of the drugs I wanna start over, I've had enough I wanna feel like I'm deserving of love I'm sick of the feeling, like I have nothing left Sick of watching my friends take their last fucking breath I just wanna be happy