Sea Floor

I'm not gonna wait until the end to see whatever I become There's no more talking in my brain, every conversation's done And all my friends are living elsewhere, beyond my wired little spine And it's just better to put my hands down, and learn to take it in the eye Oh, ho, ho, these things I used to carry all are buried in the ground I'm numb as I am weightless in the face of this doubt Oh, ho, ho, if I fit another minute underneath this fucking scalp My head will be so heavy I'll be dragging it around Yes, I will And there's a boulder in my ceiling, must have landed in my sleep And it's so hard to quit this heaving, when there is nothing left to breathe She still swims in the quagmire, where stood my sunken tree And this old world is good for nothing, except for swallowing of leaves Oh, ho, ho, and it's buried in the sea floor, and it's older than the beach This ruin of a ribcage saw the better half of me Oh, ho, ho, and if all I had to do is hold a cannonball and wait I'd be halfway to the sea floor with a smile on my face But I'm a coward