Family Curses

I got daddy issues Mommy issues Acceptance issues My therapist said I Already knew all my issues Now i fear success Gifted but wastin talent People telling me Im so dope but i feel average And I sabatage Love even if genuine Abandonment issues Life playin with my mind Im Introverted But I'm dyin to go outside But anxiety when around People feels like dyin Im tryin to break the curses Its them family curses When the love is hurtin But it aint on purpose As youth I was the odd one out No one related Back then the term for different Was too creative I used to pray to God Then learned Self perspective The universe experiencing self Is such a blessing Still she people pleasing Thinkin its all from the heart But its a fear of non acceptance Brokens my heart And this music shit almost Got me fallin apart They aint showin my qwest love I'm walkin with black thoughts But I made peace with all my demons And Surrendered to all them feelins She said whats love If you cant Get it when you get low What's love if you cant Get it when its called for What's love if you dont know Where to find it though What's love She cant look at me Cause of the pain in my eyes She said she wanna protect me From the hurt deep inside