King of Diamonds

I leave an hour before midnight With regret displacing all the short lived bliss Now I wait with bated breath Delusion comes for whatever's left Here now where I lay all my Cards on the table, I'm open, you're able to see The many ways to break me Down in this moment, oh I know that my hand is weak So you've heard one thousand forms of apology Rephrasing all the ways I'd take it back But when words fall short In creeps doubt and you withdraw Here now where I lay all my Cards on the table, I'm open, you're able to see The many ways to break me Down in this moment, oh I know that my hand is weak Me and my dumb animal brain Is running in circles, it's not coming up clear Dive deeper, Dear, find meaning in The chaos unfurling while all of the world is asleep