Company Kept

I don't know what they expect from me Trying not to succumb to the pressure especially A whirlwind of problems I tend to style though it They ask if I'm okay I tend to I smile through it All the times they gave up on me I can count with both hands In divine land I'm guessing it was all in God's plan They had to leave early I understand it now Rewrapping all the scars I had and I can't put the bandage down Sometimes I feel less human and more award Like I need success to get real love and support Even the hugs I exchange be feeling strange Or maybe it's just me I try not to let it worry me but it's all I can think about Im just wishing all of the uncertainty can even out But half of the time it just seems illogical But half of the time it just seems impossible Waiting for the day that I can kick my feet up Til then Tell God I'm tryna keep up All gas no breaks this time around All cash no credit that's out of bounds Nowadays I barely sleep Got a stopwatch on all the company I keep When the block hot ain't no choice but to retreat Niggas hating on me but they weak Nowadays I barely sleep Nowadays I barely get the sleep that I deserve Talking down behind my back boy you got some nerve I can feel it your face Hold on You wish I was erasable my aura not replaceable Success got my name over it my claim over it Your life is misguided if you put fame over it And I can't lie my motive is to get ahead Peace of mind with a money bed Shit I said what I said nigga I said what I said I said what I said what I said For real though