Resurfaced

I did my best to count my blessings today But I found fewer than I recall I did my best to leave my bed today But I found it harder than I recall It's a lonely kind of rut I frequently find myself in Caught in the middle Looking for a way to breathe deep If the signs have taught me nothing It'd come less shocking than I'd like to admit to myself It's never ending It's never ending All these things have resurfaced More quickly than I would have thought They're coming back to torture me My undertow's out of control (All these things have resurfaced) They're coming back to torture me Silence drowns the screaming Bleeding out at night In the shape of conversation Dragging what we left behind Dream it away Escape, escape At war with where I still am, impassing I'm walking beside myself in passing But I'd rather fall back down than crawl I did my best to count my blessings today But I found fewer than I recall I did my best to leave my bed today But I found it harder than I recall It's never ending Dream it all away Constant descending Dream it all away Silence drowns the screaming Bleeding out at night In the shape of conversation Dragging what we left behind