Baby Boy

I gotta open up for a minute Feeling at the end of my limit God's the one to bare witness What challenges my spirit So many doubts and fears It hurts seeing my son's tears What's this sacrifice worth Life changed after his birth Tony Daddy wants to provide better My pain written in a letter You're the reason why I continue So much innocence within you I'm trying hard to protect it Sometimes I feel really desperate At times it's hard to admit When I feel so separate I gotta be real but I'm scared Feelings your Mother and I shared It seems so easy to dream It's hard to paddle going up stream Someday you'll understand what I mean I'm from a side where grass ain't green My life was changed at fifteen Why didn't God intervene I was lost without purpose No emotions beneath the surface Until the day I met your mother She wasn't like any other She saw more than just the cover Went from a friend to a lover April twenty-eighteen Life had a change of scene I cried hearing you breathe Rejoiced hearing you seethe With so much raw emotion I had to get my life in motion Honestly I didn't have a plan I was one man with two hands And I knew I had to build For a life to be fulfilled I didn't have that many skills Stressing formula and bills Daddy knew what he had to choose It was time to lace up these shoes Studying hard for a CDL I just wanted to do well Baby Boy you're the reason for my purpose I used to feel like I was worthless I'll love you 'til my dying day I try hard to live by what I say You were molded from my clay It hurts when I drive away I'll love you 'til my dying day I try hard to live by what I say You were molded from my clay It hurts when I drive away I see greatness in your eyes My blessing sent from the skies You're forever in my heart My inspiration for this art I see greatness in your eyes My blessing sent from the skies You're forever in my heart My inspiration for this art