Letter 2 Ma Dukez

Turning words to pictures Seeing a rose that withers Psalms read in scriptures Twisting up these swishers Liquor in my liver Sitting alone by a river Thinking how much I miss you Body's cold with shivers Wish to be where you were My heart's been missing slivers Why can't you come home I faced this decade alone Oh yeah I gotta son You and him would've had fun My shoulders hold tons I feel like I fly too close to the sun I thank you for listening Even though there's silence VV's dancing and glistening Reminiscing for guidance Your smile lit up the universe Can't believe you were in a hearse Can this life get any worse Tears fall writing this verse You missed my graduation I saw you in my imagination I tried to further my education But I got into situations Would you be disappointed Tried to cleanse and get anointed Instead I tatted my canvas You left and my love vanished Crazy how fast life happens Open wounds left to be brandished You returned to the essence Every year I miss your presence The time we shared was a blessing You're in heaven no longer stressing Forever your Baby Boy Early years filled with joy Dad's with a heavy heart Losing his Queen ripped him a part Seeing you on that corner Laugh and smile with each order Community mourns a legend Years start to feel like seconds Why does it happen so fast Grateful to see twenty-seven Why do good things never last Need answers for what's questioned Confessing sins to a reverend Many storms I had to weather Wanting wrists to get severed So we can end up together God called home my Mother Look to clouds to see you hover Talking to you about my Brother Nigel face battles to recover We ain't communicating This news is devastating I'm losing people that I love I'm down below they're up above Nigel needs you more than ever I tried to show him life's better Show him music endeavors I thought our bond was forever Family dynamics changed And my love feels so strained That's a part of the game My chest is inked with your name Music is how I numb the pain Sun shines I still feel the rain Time's just a fleeting moment Read the Bible for atonement But that provides little solace Momma I'm just being modest Life has twists and turns Gave gifts and still got burns You gotta live and learn And work hard for what you earn Circle of life that returned And now it's my turn Raising my son into a man Wishing I had more of a plan I guess we go with the flow Learning as both of us grow That's how you and Dad did it Seems like life isn't scripted Gotta take the good with the bad The happiness mixed with the sad Years pass and it's never easy Holidays got me feeling queasy Moments I knew from the heart Unconditional love from the start Momma's a true work of art I wish this life can restart But that's the beauty of it all When you gotta answer God's call Our understanding seems small Maybe we're the angels that fall Momma I love you forever Seal my love into this letter