so conflicted

Ayy, ayy, ayy, listen here closer, slow me, slip to comatose All this trauma in my head, led me to an overdose I asked my mama for my meds, she said I'm going overboat I said I'm not afraid to drown, she said the ocean's overcoast I end up choking in emotions, my motions are slowly loading in potions I'm loading 40's and 50's, just give me a break Like gods against me, don't tempt me , This family strength With me, you can never hold me down, I got baphomet taint in me I always hate the way I'm hated, debating on a hiatus, Scars you left me never faded, so I am forever faded I still keep on levitating, never meditating Only relevate that medicating, only leaves your family devastated I, I never been so conflicted All my life, it's this constant distance I get what I get, when my mind evicted Suggest Is the Venom that caused infliction I, I never been so conflicted All my life, it's this constant distance I get what I get, when my mind evicted Suggest Is the Venom that caused infliction You think I'm the enemy , but this isn't really me Please just set me fucking free, yeah this pain is killing me Please just set me fucking free, please stop walking over me I'm a slice of fucking mayhem, I can't really fucking blame em All I do is fucking hate em, all I do is fucking love em every fucking night I hear shots like it's fucking Gotham , I'ma sink down to the bottom I feel like I'm so forgotten, damn my heart is fucking rotten I just wanna kill my feelings, I just wanna kill my demons Shit so hard to keep the ceiling, this future I'm fucking stealing I don't have to keep on stealing, constant flush I'm fucking peeling I can't wait to feel this feeling you all are my fucking demons