feelings deep inside

Feeling like I haven't Really been myself Lately I've been feeling Like I'm going through hell I don't know how To ask for help When all I see is pain In the hills of hell She's hiding who she's meant to be Mostly cause she's scared to be The person in society Who no one loves or understands The person who's inside of me Was lost in much uncertainty Growing up in this cold world Created deep anxiety From feelings deep inside of me Not welcome in society Cause no one gives a f*ck about A pretty girls' misery It's hard to love yourself But damn have I been trying Even harder to heal yourself When you just feel like dying Nobody ever knows This feeling I can't control Often telling myself That maybe I should get some help But then I stop myself Cause I don't need the help I can't be saved from hell And I'm not me without this hell She's hiding who she's meant to be Mostly cause she's scared to be The person in society Who no one loves or understands The person who's inside of me Was lost in much uncertainty Growing up in this cold world Created deep anxiety From feelings deep inside of me Not welcome in society Cause no one gives a f*ck about A pretty girls' misery Put a lock on my heart And didn't even know it Till' I tried to show the world And I just couldn't do it Admit who I am Removing the fear Tell all my secrets To those who'll hear Searching for the words to say And something I can care about Lost the one I need the most Keep hurting those I care about Pretending that I'm okay That I'm alright, but I'm not fine This fire burning inside Reminds me that I'm alive I think I finally know What it means to sell your soul