I Don't Feel Alive

(It's Kosfin'er, baby) (Peso, how you do that?) (Jondior) (It's Kosfin'er, baby) Yeah, at times I don't feel alive, nigga Yeah And at times I don't feel alive In zombie mode but I'm still 'gon slide Gon' put my life on the line before I ever watch my nigga die Face to face can't you tell that I got empty eyes? I feel the chance to kill the one that killed my dawg, it might make me cry Yeah, and that's the truth I hope you happy 'bout this pain I'm rappin' 'bout, that's all you Learn myself, ain't no man out here show me how to move Keep my distance, used to look up to that nigga as a youth Open wounds, only proof of the struggle that we came from Now I got my little change up It's probably only right I change up 'Cause lately you been actin' strange, Blood Never thought I could obtain love but the way that she been actin' got me thinkin' I could feel Them death threats ain't respected, 'til you show me that it's real Strap my cleats, throw a backplate on my Glock It get lonely in the field Nobody trustworthy can't even take the homies on a drill He been around me for some years, but I don't know him Thought you was my homie You showed your true intentions you really phony Switch close as I'm watch niggas closely Pops said he got me, I'm hangin' on to what he told me (My bro don't know what he told me) 'Cause that's the only thing that keep me strong Family fake every week I change the number to my phone Can't tell you what's goin' on, I'm present but I'm really never home These voices been distractin' me from my goals And every time I slide, I tell my brother that this the last time And then I go dribble a little more Inside of me there's a hole, where my heart supposed to be Wishin' my Pops would wake up, so it be hard for me to sleep Walk into court, head down I know the drill, I'm from the streets Read me my rights, 'cause you ain't gettin' shit from me (Gzzz, ayy) Before I turn myself in, I would be wrong if I ain't pop nothin' How you 'gon care about your life when you ain't got nothin' Yeah, lil' bro ain't got no type of motion, he's just opp huntin' Fuckin' with niggas that's tryna kill me, Gales we not brothers Speak on my name 'cause I ain't put you on, that's not a hunnid Rrari World, I'm satisfied with life I know what I did Box Glocks inside my head, with murder scenes that I'm fine with Walk a nigga down with fooly switch, you gotta try this (yeah, yeah) Has somethin' happened in your life that made your mind switch? 'Cause when I came out the womb, I wasn't like this And at times I don't feel alive In zombie mode but I'm still 'gon slide Gon' put my life on the line before I ever watch my nigga die Face to face can't you tell that I got empty eyes? I feel the chance to kill the one that killed my dawg, it might make me cry Yeah, and that's the truth I hope you happy 'bout this pain I'm rappin' 'bout, that's all you Learn myself, ain't no man out here show me how to move Keep my distance, used to look up to that nigga as a youth