Vicious Cycle

I gave you my everything And I gave you my word You left me with nothing This is downright absurd Now we're all mixed up And I can't say a word I talk to you when I'm alone But it's your voice I wish I've heard This cycle I've lived in All my sins forgiven But nobody wants me And I am not God Dissing reality Realize infinity Repeat the processes Die without words I get lonely all the time But I erase it with my friends You don't know me half the time Cause my thoughts are incompleted Wide awake I think of you And why I never sleep All my thoughts are delusions They aren't reality God you're so beautiful I am not comfortable All of the noise Needs to disappear What should I do right now My thoughts are disjointed how Did I get here? Why can't I go back?