Mobbed

Here's how a lad from the cul-de-sac Started taking cabs to avoid the stares That's a homophone homo here Black poz too so leer step back I was mobbed I got jobbed I was lobbed abuse I slogged When I gobbed support Nets fobbed So histrionic rage my sobs About a child who had to nob His minder Bro caught cousin in the act my silence Mum at home grudged her kids Daily reminder Threats with a care home then kicked out years later Home weed farm bro attempt strangulation Schools hate my uppity faggotty stations That's why I tried to find a white male saviour That's why I broke down but your entertainment That's why my dreams are a big lifesaver Made mistakes and I can't take them back So I must choose the outlets to take away all my pain and shame My cold ambition gives me purpose Talk goes on they won't move on I'll make this album to help keep me sane I walk down the street I get triggered Shouting cunt to me I hear titters Cams out I retreat but I'm fingered I move out hide away for a year I got anxiety like I'm porky pig Bi durp bi durp bi durp bi durp bi durp My brain on a loop fear shame on a loop What they saying whispers looks The Yak the Snapchat there they took my dignity telling me I'm a slut Contracted Kuh-Puh-Tis-Dee mental STD I am UD I am still clean yet you'll still hurt me Girl your boyf a cheat just not with me Knew not initially But decided f*ck it go yet have the nerve to call me a hoe In the lecture hall assault my bussy by toe So brave with your cunt friends A Dopey Crabbe and Goyle one each end Why are you all harassing me Why are your lives so empty You see a weakness, abuse I see I'm tired burnout, approval I need You see my self-hate Looking outside myself for answers Shame, scandal You intrigued, feeling, power-ful Everyone else is doing it so it must be OK I think He must deserve it though the douche the twat the fucking prick Two thousand fifteen Whole world saw my peen Wank to a phone screen Humiliated me Betting on shagging me Dickheads surrounding me Flaccid but cuppa tea My traumas last four lustrums don't excuse behaviours But proportional response this doesn't merit Called out dongs getting involved instigators Forgive the white cis 'straight' not the black fag yeah I said it I get these flashbacks (Panic attacks) I want approval your approval any approval Self-love mine is frugal Like a Lidl shop Troll me doxx me Stalk then picket me Revenge porn me Once spike twice assault me So here's a little story how EH, I fucked up I'll face my issues EH, rage coon f*ck I'm having a breakdown EH, I'm having a breakdown C-P-T-S-D Nightmares in sleep Flashbacks chase me Please let me be