Lost reality

I think I'm losing my mind I feel this breaking my spine I hope you know that your mind Until the day that we die My feelings caught in a tide It's pushing me to the side I'm trying to be in your light I'm trying to be in your life These voices up in my mind I just been feeling so blind I'll never figure it out I could sit here and bleed out Could burn this place to the ground What is wrong with me now I could stare up at my ceiling so long I lose touch with reality so this not no song It's a portal to a place where I feel I could belong It's like like everything I'm doing is always turning out wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong I'm always wrong I'm just wrong Hi, I'm a suicidal empathic type of guy And I think I'll move all my problems by just getting high I know I fucked up in the past but I would never lie I was sitting there alone under my bed I cried I had a head of lies I need to fix myself Feel like I'm a lost cause, might just kill my self This the way that I be feeling when I need your help I thought we lived on earth, I should've known it's hell