Read it while I rot

I wonder, will you stay No other way I'm just fucked up inside my brain I know I can be a lot It looks intentional it's not There's a message that brought You could read it while I rot Girl your really all I got So don't ever think your not No don't ever think that you were never on my mind It's a constant thing I think about it all the time Don't shut down on me I'm begging you just not to hide I lost myself and you made it right This is shit that I be thinking while I'm walking in the night I know I can be a lot It looks intentional it's not There's a message that brought You could read it while I rot Girl your really all I got I guess the pain it never stops I really hate who I was I really hate who I am without you, it's not right I drink until I think I'll die I'll stare up at the stars all night The answer's never in the sky I was looking in the sky should've looked for you I was looking in the sky should've looked for you Blacked out again what happened here I drowned myself in alcohol Cause I had nothing with you gone I checked the window and it's dawn Sunlight is creeping on my lawn I watched the sun rise and think I could be with you in a blink We were both looking at the sun And I know we weren't together Yeah I get that we were done So I thought that when you texting me you joking around for fun Until I took your advice and started staring at the sun I know I can be a lot It looks intentional it's not There's a message that brought You could read it while I rot Girl your really all I got So I hope I'm in your plot Really hope I'm in your plan I'll do anything I can We were both looking at the sun And I know we weren't together Yeah I get that we were done So I thought that when you texting me you joking around for fun Until I took your advice and started staring at the sun I know I can be a lot It looks intentional it's not There's a message that brought You could read it while I rot Girl your really all I got So I hope I'm in your plot Really hope I'm in your plan I'll do anything I can