Why is everybody so delusional

I know that I'm being crazy I just need you to myself And if you didn't come, then maybe I would not find help If you didn't come, I'd probably never find myself You care about the little things where no one else would give a f*ck When I'm not with you Feels like I'm running out of luck It's like bottle after bottle pick it up and then I'm stuck Let's make the most of what we got let's try and live it up I really don't take much convincing said I'm giving up Should I pick it up? Or should I pick up the phone? I really need you here. I'm sick of being alone. You told me that it wouldn't hurt You showed me that's not how it works Why is everybody so fucking delusional? I got a sword up on my back and I will use it Put me in an anime I feel like Yu-Gi-Oh Girl, I really don't have shit what would you use me for? Yeah when I'm not with you It's like I'm running out of luck Now it's bottle after bottle pick it up and then I'm stuck I know that you're the only one who ever really gave a f*ck I know I made some bad decisions but now I just want your love Should I pick it up? Or should I pick up the phone? I really don't do well Anytime I'm alone I think I'll start experimenting, see if I can bleed I know I'm not too good I get it if you hide from me Just don't lie to me I'm too high for me No, I can't see As everything just fades away while I sit here, so gracefully Your beauty plain to see