Chutes and Ladders

All my thoughts are swarming Am I getting erased? Goosebumps up my spine So far it scrambles my brain Should I take the stairs? I see you're bleeding Rest your wings The ladder's in the hole and it's sinking Fly blue jay What if we tried tomorrow? You're pushing me away I don't like this game You were someone that I adored I'm staying tame Should I have been doing more I miss the wake and all the pieces you would break Take a deep breath I miss the laughs, bud I feel so stuck, don't want to waste your time This clock is ticking down my spine I feel my bones crawling out Stomach acid in my mouth I'm just ready to climb out Of this grave you dug so loud Shadows fill the hole from your breathing Smokey lungs The chutes'll take a toll on your healing Slide on down What if we died tomorrow? Forget our favorite days I don't like this game You were someone I could adore I'm staying tame Should I have been doing more? How the mood has changed Chutes and Ladders fill the morgue I know I'm not entitled to your time Lay down wonder why I try With this straw in my mouth Blow my head through thick milk clouds I'm struggling to find out What you're really about