Phantom Limb

I said I found my phantom limb but I was lying I said I finally found my place in altar light But there's nothing in my way that wants me trying So I'll drown myself and wait for afterlife I thought I found the perfect hymn that I was writing I thought I finally made my space in mortal life But the darkness in the heart's intensifying So I'll stick around and wait for solar light to come There's a line that passes through the undercurrent There's a place on the horizon that I like Think I'll stay there for a minute and survive, survive, survive And eventually I'll find that I'll arise I said I found my missing piece despite the trying Although I finally found my place in all the lights Thought of something in the way was terrifying So I stopped and lied in wait for autumn life Had a thought about my present state of being As I walked along the boardwalk late at night When I looked into the water all my fears were neutralized And eventually I knew that I was right I finally found my phantom limb, I wasn't lying I knew I finally found the spark in normal life There was something in the way that kept me trying Now I'm standing here and basking in the light Now I'm standing here and basking in the light Feeling love and life reacting in the light Watch the dark disintegrating in the light When I die I'll disappear into the light