Silencio

All I want is All I felt Come September There was nothing left There's no music There's no band I ran furthest From my helping hands All I want is All I had By late December I had concrete plans Did you notice That I had built Nothing like this And nothing else All I want is All I knew By the summer I'd begin anew I saw your versions Splayed out on the floor I saw nothing That I could before As the days turned To longer nights Darkness unearthed By a blinding light I felt the snarling From behind the door The sun is rising But for how much more? A nightmare descending Who are you defending? A bloated pus filled fascist mess Your silence is indifference All the time is blending It feels the world is ending I'm drowning in the mess I've made I cannot tell how far I've strayed Don't tell me I am done This isn't my swan song All this work and all this pain Has killed my sense of right and wrong Tell me I am strong Please tell me I belong Take me to the places That I knew when I was young Sail me to the island That I knew when I was young Show me all the colors That I knew when I was young As time passes I am nursed to health Some years later I am someone else Staring blankly At the summer sky I remembered How it felt to die All I want is All I was Lo que quiero Es un gran silencio Un gran silencio