somebody else

Too many thoughts Too many emotions They shoot all at once Hard to keep focus Used to be focused I used to smile without thinking about whether somebody noticed The kid behind cigarette smoke and Screens that hid who I was The man that I am 21 isn't forever, that's something you find on a tag Of something that you shouldn't wear You got no drip On these late nights I get nose drip On LA nights I done paid fines For the strongest of herbs The medicinal healing of potions (I drown in Patron, it's an ocean) Lately I question my motives I've really been feeling so hopeless My shorty hands me a lotus But I break it down and I toke it Someone send me up to Mars So I could wish upon the stars I was somebody else I was somebody else But I Hate reenacting au revoir's I wasn't casted for these parts I ain't somebody else I ain't somebody else Blacking out in backyards My momma is crying My homies are laughing It's beautifully balanced I got tar in my lungs Pinot noir in my chalice A heart bleeding blue like it's Dallas (sadness) F*ck bruises, I'm calloused On these colder nights, I see northern lights My pain saturating off of acid Aurora borealis paint on my palette (canvas) Shades of my madness On solar eclipses, I Push out my Malice Pull on your love like a magnet For the 20-somethings feeling stuck Know that I got you through all of my sins and the baddest of habits But Logic still clips all my feelings and talents Can't find them tools for the damage Somebody fix me Shit is like Westworld, been feeling NPC And Gen Z too PC But I still love you, you're the reason I still be Singing to get out this simulation Stashing my avatar in the basement Out of character always my character Guarantee life is a bitch and she wasted (gotta cherish her) I still be worried about what is next How could I not when my life is a mess? Bouncing from houses to houses and beds But if I could go back I'd still do it again It's engrained in my flesh, motherfuck a regret Kill my depression For therapy, I do these studio sessions Someone send me up to Mars So I could wish upon the stars I was somebody else I was somebody else But I Hate reenacting au revoir's I wasn't casted for these parts I ain't somebody else I ain't somebody else