I'm Sorry I'm Like This

I never meant to hurt you, I'm sorry I'm like this I'm sorry for the tears I caused to fall I didn't mean to hurt you at all I'm sorry I'm like this What have I done Now you're gone Done with my bullshit Can't even talk to you cause you both block me Now I hide my feels cause I don't wanna deal with it Cause I don't wanna be left alone I'm sorry that I'm like this, it cannot be helped I don't want to open up again cause that's what caused the both of you to leave and block me So I lock away my emotions cause I don't wanna go through that shit again It's been a few months and I'm still in pain And I still don't know why I'm holding on to our friendship Since you left I haven't been the same No I haven't been the same I'm sorry I'm like this, I wish I could change I don't wanna open up cause I don't want my friends to leave me again Leave me again I never meant to hurt you, I'm sorry I'm like this I'm sorry for the tears I caused to fall I didn't mean to hurt you at all I'm sorry I'm like this What have I done Now you're gone Done with my bullshit Can't even talk to you cause you both blocked me Now I hide my feels cause I don't wanna deal with it Cause I don't wanna be left alone I'm sorry that I'm like this, it cannot be helped I don't want to open up again cause that's what caused the both of you to leave and block me So I lock away my emotions