suicidal thoughts

Suicidal thoughts In the back of my mind Ya I'm so lonely And I wanna fuckin die I don't even know Nobody call me on the phone And I'm prayin in my room And I know I'm all alone Suicidal thoughts on my mind Ya I know I'm dead inside Ya you know I'm dead inside Not even trynna hide it I got thoughts of suicide And I'm not even trynna fight it Why should I live when I could just die This life's too complex I don't even wanna try anymore Know I tried to make it I tried to find you Then I sat in the back And they told me the truth You were gone And I was alive And that was the moment I wanted to fuckin die Took you for granted I ran away Now I bear that pain For the rest of my days Suicidal thoughts In the back of my mind Ya I'm so lonely And I wanna fuckin die I wanna cry In the corner of my room tonight Don't want to see it through Don't wanna be alive Doin hard drugs Just to cope with the pain Think that they look at me They think I'm insane I don't even care And they don't give a f*ck All they do is stare I'm just trying all my luck (Nigga please lemme the f*ck out) Let me out of this dark place I don't even call it home Don't know what to do Nobody called me on the phone Scrollin through the camera roll Lookin at pics of us both Father how I miss you so Maybe you look at me You might think I feel alive You couldn't be more wrong I know I just want to die Got a lot of drugs on my mind Tears falling down my face I don't know if I can finish this race Suicidal thoughts In the back of my mind Ya I'm so lonely And I wanna fuckin die I wanna cry In the corner of my room tonight Don't want to see it through Don't wanna be alive Doin hard drugs Just to cope with the pain Think that they look at me They think I'm insane I don't even care And they don't give a f*ck All they do is stare I'm just trying all my luck (Nigga please lemme the f*ck out) Let me out of this dark place I don't even call it home Don't know what to do Nobody called me on the phone Scrollin through the camera roll Lookin at pics of us both Father how I miss you so Maybe you look at me You might think I feel alive You couldn't be more wrong I know I just want to die Got a lot of drugs on my mind Tears falling down my face I don't know if I can finish this race