3 A.M.

I was up in Orlando I saw many scandals But nowadays all of that's average No handle on life Homeless and fiends walk around city lights But still sleep on the corners at night I can admit that nobody should suffer But we make decisions that throw us in gutters My childhood consisted of beatings and discipline Now you know why I can't blend with your friends But see then again I'm isolated No Gilligan Giggling and thinking that soon I'll be winning man Here we go Same thing all over I guess But it's all that I know I was never taught drugs How to bust up the slugs How to become a thug But I'll beat down the bug that can buzz in my ear causing many distractions Not going off course for the worldly attractions Waiting and waiting was me everyday I was working Now I'm in L.A. and my love's above all of this All for my future kids I would give anything just to secure my gift Then again I would give everything up Plus my way to go vent When nobody would listen I didn't go dissing Instead I did me till they noticed the difference Forgive me my God for the sins I committed I know that there's more But it sounded convincing Confessing our fault is what makes us forgiven But nowadays pride is what kills us No kidding There's moments I think and it's deadly A lethal injection with thoughts are a sure way to end me But no I'm not ready to perish I'm building a legacy One that can carry what I believed I lost hope But not my life How can I be set free Time can turn My skin will burn I'm human I will bleed 3 o'clock My sleep has stopped But dreaming will proceed My eyes can't see I barely breathe It's 3 My spirit leaves Me losing hope is significant Ponder I wander the best of both worlds How magnificent Is it maleficent being malevolent Tell me the wrong from my right What's benevolent when we're surrounded by bad It's irrelevant Growing in music has made me feel better than all of my moves as a rookie I'm tryna be veteran labeled A legend I never went begging for clout So don't lemme hear negative things about El from your mouth I was born to be something When they said I'm nothing I told em keep talking I will overcome it I noticed that 2018 is my season I bring to the table a plate full of reasons I should be the artist that's grinding the hardest Remember when money was dryer than leaves up in August When cash didn't come I was writing from day to the night While I prepped for my studio time I would lock myself deep in my room building strategy Writing Producing I worked till I fell asleep Now I'm still doing the same But this time it's the money for flights from my home to L.A I've been getting uncomfortable Chasing convertibles might be the dream of the blind It's affordable I lost hope But not my life How can I be set free Time can turn My skin will burn I'm human I will bleed 3 o'clock My sleep has stopped But dreaming will proceed My eyes can't see I barely breathe It's 3 My spirit leaves