On My Own

Do you ever just look around See everything you ever dreamed off But yet Still feel alone? On my own, I'm forever on my own I've got one million problems but I cannot take them home I do not want my kids to see the king fall off his throne I don't have an ego we each idolise our own Parents, but it is apparent That I cannot seek help Or find a deterrent When I pop my pills the OCD it doesn't lessen Wonder if the streets got me on a Valium alternate On the other hand when I've taken shit too far cnd the paranoia's starting to piss Jodie off I talk to the doctor and I tell her all my flaws She thinks I'm depressed and offers alternative drugs But I knock them back, cause I'm not taking any old shit Yes I understand, that to some I am a hypocrite But just hear me out There's a very happy side to me The OCD only operates before two times Sleep and leave On my own, I'm forever on my own I've struggled with my job for 16 years, no one knows ct least not at the top because on trips I must still go Gotta feed the fam so my weakness I cannot show I affect my personality To talk charismatically cppear to live in happiness and cover up the black abyss Popping pills relaxes me, I really feel the pressure ease But then I can't be fucked and I got 3 kids to appease So I take them sparingly Dangerous, territory cfter a few days their locked away Yeah, and I ignore ‘em Now what am I to do? Gotta see a pal or two Not been out in months maybe a drink would do me good? I pick up the phone before I know I am just scrolling cnd so much time passes by I decide to just postpone it Move it to tomorrow is the motto of my sorrow c trend I often follow That leaves me feeling hollow On my own, I'm forever on my own I've struggled with my job for 16 years, no one knows ct least not at the top because on trips I must still go Gotta feed the fam so my weakness I cannot show On my own, I'm forever on my own I've struggled with anxiety my whole life no one knows Used music as a means to feel good so I don't feel low Now I use it as a tool to release shit and help me grow