Recovery. (The.Truth, Pt. 2)

I told you how it feels to be fighting for your life In front of a judge but she didn’t do me right I didn’t go to prison but I didn’t win the fight But I think I did this day then I’m in my bed tonight Probation ain’t that bad but it really fucked my life And to make it even worse ya my girl she turned out trife Been through a lot of shit in the years I’ve been alive I got sent away to rehab ya it really shined a light I used to pop pills just to make me feel alright Ya the Xanax made my family straight forget what I was like I didn’t give a f*ck I almost saw the other side Ya addiction and depression really took me for a ride I was breathing I was beating but I still wasn’t alive My brain was a zombie cuz the drugs I had inside Had to drop out of college still pretending shit was fine Ya 18 years old but I’m missing out on life House arrest was normal but I worked a 9 to 5 But I couldn’t tell nobody so I put it in a mic They knew me a Lil Pablo always toting on the pipe Ya my name was all I had I couldn’t let them see inside I’m still little Pablo and I still got my pipe But I’m back and I’m better now I’m doing things right The image in my head how I almost took my life I wasn’t even trying but the Xannies fucked my mind I need another one and another and another I remember breaking down and just crying to my mother My family became distant ya we barely saw each other And when I was away ya I really missed my brother With everybody else I put on a fucking cover This one girl got me deep but she didn’t want a lover She cut me open wide but my heart’s not made of rubber She smashed it on the ground ya she made it fucking rupture My past is my past that shit can’t be restructured The only thing now is to focus and recover But how can I recover when I can’t forget my past No matter what I do it still bites me in the ass No matter how I try, to cover up my tracks Keep my name up out your mouth before I get up on your ass Ya 13 years old when I started selling pack So close to being free little Pablos almost back yeah, aye