Searching

I've been searching my heart Going back to the start But we've been here before No I told myself to be brave For what lies in the way I can't escape from the pain No No matter how hard I try to escape, I'm being held back as they close the gates I feel like it's concealed my fate These thoughts like chains I need to break Before they drag me down the abyss I try but I can't seem to resist I've given up, I wanna forget How they've left me broken down like this I've tried to get myself back up but can't find the motivation With everything pressing down on me I feel it's overtaking My train of thought, I feel I've lost all anticipation For any good to come from this complication I've put everyone else before me, when's it my turn To put myself first, I feel like I've earned At least something to go my way by now but I'm not concerned That it'll skip over me, it's just something that I've learned I wanna keep pushing thru but each step is getting heavier I wanna break the barrier that's leaving me inferior But the glass house inside could collapse at any second So I'm searching for a way to make sure some part is still protected I've been searching my heart Going back to the start But we've been here before No I told myself to be brave For what lies in the way I can't escape from the pain No Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep And if I die before I wake, I want you all to celebrate The great things that I left behind, and don't you mourn it will be fine Someday we'll be together again, but maybe at a better time One where I'm not hurting, I'm not coping, I'm not restless But one where I'm enjoying life and nothing is against us Seeing the world come together through a new perspective That's something I wanna see can't you just respect it I've finally let go of everything that's been keeping me here There's nothing left to hold me down except the fear Of leaving you behind, the only thing on my mind I want you to know it's not your fault, I wanna make it clear That's it's something I had to go through all on my own Everything has shown me that this is somthing I've outgrown Pero Con Mi Fe se que con este cambio hay razón Y ojalá el tiempo va acomodar mi corazón I've been searching my heart Going back to the start But we've been here before No I told myself to be brave For what lies in the way I can't escape from the pain No