If I Could Only

I've got some things I need to get off of my chest Listen If I could only find a way To make it through this winding maze If I could only pave a path To distance from the rage and wrath If I could only tame my mind To overcome the pain inside If I could only clear my head Maybe I could put this fear to bed I won't lie, I've been going through it Thoughts in my mind interfering with my movement A lot to be grateful for but I'm afraid to lose it The older that I get, the more peace becomes elusive If I could only find a way to disrupt the cycle Maybe break the patterns, instead of sitting idle Maybe find a way to cope and get out of this spiral Find a way to stop comparing myself to rivals Maybe I can finally find the peace that I crave Try to tell myself I don't need to be saved When the panic hits, I can't resist, I'm weak Try to handle it, or manage it, or breathe But I'm falling fast, I'm fading quick I know That this all will pass, but pain just hits my soul If I could only find a way to deal with the pressure Maybe I could breathe, knowing that I beat the stressors If I could only find a way To make it through this winding maze If I could only pave a path To distance from the rage and wrath If I could only tame my mind To overcome the pain inside If I could only clear my head Maybe I could put this fear to bed If I could only find a way To make it through this winding maze If I could only pave a path To distance from the rage and wrath If I could only tame my mind To overcome the pain inside If I could only clear my head Maybe I could put this fear to bed If I could only If I could only If I could only find the words To help me curb these tiring nerves If I could only fight this urge To run and hide when I'm perturbed But I know I've got these demons to fight Try to look out for the signs but I'm not reading them right Stuck inside this tunnel try to reach for the light But I'm stuck where I stand, like my knee is in a vice I struggle to cope, these mechanisms are useless Try clutching hope, but if I'm honest the truth is I'm afraid of everything, it's how my brain is wired Trying to heal with my vices is just playing with fire If I could only catch my breath And deal with all this extra stress If I could only find some peace Maybe I could finally breathe If I could only persevere Try to leave this burden here If I could only find a way To make it through this winding maze If I could only find a way To make it through this winding maze If I could only pave a path To distance from the rage and wrath If I could only tame my mind To overcome the pain inside If I could only clear my head Maybe I could put this fear to bed If I could only find a way To make it through this winding maze If I could only pave a path To distance from the rage and wrath If I could only tame my mind To overcome the pain inside If I could only clear my head Maybe I could put this fear to bed