Just My Time

I'm so sick of fighting, I'm so sick of hiding I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired, that now I'm wilding Voices in my head are sounding louder than a siren Try to drown them out, but my anxiety's a tyrant Feel the pressure tighten, as I'm clashing with this titan On a path to get enlightened, but the panicking is heightened Can feel the fear is rising, but this anger's energizing Dodge the flash of lightning, crashing over the horizon I've come too far, no turning back Hide these new scars, I won't crack If I should fall, just know I tried Risked it all, put it all on the line If I don't make it, please don't cry I fought the good fight, it's just my time Battle worn, and I'm war torn, but I won't concede Fighting with myself to be the man that I hope to be Still have this habit of pushing away those close to me Battling my demons I need more than a rosary Never been the type to operate on blind faith Try to be cautious, with all endeavors I chase But I've been running in circles, lately I'm just irate Hopping over hurdles, as I try to defy fate Indulge in these vices, to maintain sanity But that effort's in vain, so instead I chase vanity Choices that I make today will dictate tomorrow But tomorrow isn't promised, we're all on time borrowed Mother nature is a force, father time is undefeated Life is just an hourglass, the sand's almost depleted (but) I've come too far, no turning back Hide these new scars, I won't crack If I should fall, just know I tried Risked it all, put it all on the line If I don't make it, please don't cry I fought the good fight, it's just my time If I don't make it, please don't cry I fought the good fight, it's just my time