a broken message

Everything was good When I was back at home I was feeling good Had my life in check I was growing up Bout' time I started that I was learning things Mind was sharp, a tack But I feel like i've lost it Mind feels kinda wack This Bein Hazmanim's bad And to me that's a fact Why did I take this break It's all seems kinda bad My thoughts are all confused My feelings are all sad Cause' I let myself go Way to far off the way The derech I should be It slowly slips away Been thinking things I shouldn't I know it's not ok Been doing things I wouldn't If I would've stayed I've lost myself a little Drifted from the bay Now I lay on sins and sins I feel i've fully strayed All i've done this year Has all went down the drain And I don't feel for sun I only like the rain Because the clouds are up above And they share my pain Can I be better than'em They're beyond the grave I feel so gone, my work is gone I've lost my faith My Yetzer Hara seems to win In every single way I can't push him away Seems like he's here to stay But as I write these words I realize I can save My world from diving deeper Into a sinful lake I need to see the steps ahead Not the steps that left me dead The steps of growth, from failure Steps i've always led In the past I did it once I'm sure I can again So what i've lost my crown? So what i've fallen down? Deeper than I did before It's time to open up It's time to really soar I cant live like this This life has got me torn The piercing prick of Yetzer Haras' sinful flower thorn I need to be pulled out By someone in the clouds That someone's me of course And my Yetzer Tov I'm better now bc i've learned what it's like To think your'e on the top, and then get hit with life And now I stand on all my sins and reach higher My soul is burning bout a million times brighter I now have a stronger will, an unbreakable desire To do the best I can, nothing can get me tired The things i've done and thought, are all now in the past And I know there's a chance that it won't be the last But i'll grow from it, like bones do out the cast I encourage you to do the same next time your'e in a mess Next time ur feelin' less, than what you really are C'mon you know you're blessed, you're a shining star I don't want you to stress, just to raise the bar Everything's alright, you gon' make it far Every voice inside your head is just a test I know there's something in every single Jew, that wants to be the best