Party Favor

Holding my head in my hands I'm unwilling to breathe I do not know who I am, give me someone to be God why are you still the reason I can't fall asleep Don't you know I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth Oh I know you kissed me just to shut me up I know I always get a little too drunk I guess it's just a matter of time before it shows up It's all in my head till it's not, then it's over I know I'm wild and I talk too loud Too many words coming out of my mouth I guess I should've known you weren't a long game player I could only keep you as a party favor My friends say I should be upset But I can't feel a thing I guess I just haven't slept I'm forgetting to eat I'm losing weight as I'm losing my mind every week But honey I know that you were not playing for keeps Oh I know you kissed me just to shut me up I know I always get a little too drunk I guess it's just a matter of time before it shows up It's all in my head till it's not, then it's over I know I'm wild and I talk too loud Too many words are coming out of my mouth I guess I should've known you weren't a long game player I could only keep you as a party favor Oh I think the starvation is catching up to me I can't feel my body My clothes fall right off me I think this illusion is holding onto me Is this what you wanted Am I finally pretty I think the starvation is catching up to me I see you in passing You never look at me It all feels so pointless I shouldn't have done this Is this what you wanted Is this what you wanted You're just being honest Oh I know you kissed me just to shut me up I know I always get a little too drunk I guess it's just a matter of time before it shows up It's all in my head till it's not, then it's over I know I'm wild and I talk too loud Too many words coming out of my mouth I guess I should've known you weren't a long game player I could only keep you as a party favor Oh I could only keep you as a party favor yeah I could only keep you as a party favor