Runaway

Yelled at my dog again Now I feel bad, what kind Of mother will I make? Useless tryin' to make friends When I can barely see my mom It's a funny kind of age And I know what goes up Must come down But my insides Are torn inside out Between where I think I should be And where I'm supposed to be Why don't you just get up And leave? No why don't you just stay? Why don't you just run away? Why don't you just leave? Why don't you just stay? Why don't you just get up And run away? Yesterday it happened again Catastrophizing, what is my plan? Is there even a path? What makes me special or worthy enough To beat the odds? There's that old tape again Thought the last bottom would solidify my belief Yet God no longer seems convenient What kind of fucked up dream is this? And I know what goes up Must come down But my inside's Torn inside out Between where I think I should be And where I'm supposed to be Why don't you just get up And leave? No why don't you just stay? Why don't you just run away? Why don't you just leave? Why don't you just stay? Why don't you just get up And run away?