Emotions

Men don’t get emotional Men don’t cry I know for fact She says, “What you feel?” Don’t know how to respond to that Negative emotions kill my vibe So I put them deep inside And I know they deprive Sometimes I try to cry I can’t and I don't know why And so I get back on my grind Money’s long, never stops By the time I’m 21 I’ve retired my mom Daddy died when I was 19 Granny died when I was 14 War started when I was 12 When I was 19, war hit me again Double-time refugee All my life I run, that’s on me When I die, not on me Air Force 1, that’s on me Rocket in my yard, not on me Chicago seems like peaceful city to me, homie Traumatized about my past Therapy been so long Ain’t been happy so long Been moving so solo Only feeling sorrow Felt that I was so lost Don’t wanna feel it no more I will laugh about my problems Ain’t no way I’m gonna cry My therapist told me I should But I don’t know if I even could I’m just gonna rap about it Put my pain in paint I can’t stress about it I can drink about it I can smoke about it Marlboro red about it Marlborough Sun about it All that stuff in me I don’t like to think Hate being sober I want this shit over I want this shit over Frame by frame I collect All my memories in puzzle I remember when i struggle And that time had made me tougher Wouldn’t I have been The man I am right now If not for times I’d love to be forgotten Questioned my own sanity My best friend was anxiety It’s got me to this flow variety And all this chasing money probably Such tough guy mentality Can’t be weak, it’s not an option Told my closest that I got you I ain't did rap in years It healed me when I need But years have passed me by I’ve done nothing but try Be tough, be right, be better Should’ve just been a rapper I will laugh about my problems Ain’t no way I’m gonna cry My therapist told me I should But I don’t know if I even could I’m just gonna rap about it Put my pain in paint I can’t stress about it I can drink about it I can smoke about it Marlboro red about it Marlborough Sun about it All that stuff in me I don’t like to think Hate being sober I want this shit over I want this shit over