I'm Not Saying

The truth looks so pretty dressed up Hiding away in another disguise If everybody's playing it cool, nobody gets mad This lie looked so good on us And I was only looking at your good side But isn't that why you needed me so bad The city took its toll on us A rainy night, a mystery You told me you were broken, but so was I And the story felt dangerous The words unsaid left in between So how can you say the fault was only mine? If I hold my breath and bite my tongue, can I keep it all in my head? I'm not saying that I've been crying I'm not saying that I'm the only one trying I'm not saying that I still love you Cuz maybe if I don't say it, somehow it won't be true Now we find ourselves way up here Hanging out on a tightrope wire The skyline looks so pretty if we don't look down Trouble adores the worst in me And why am I the one who has to be kind And try to keep your heart from hitting the ground Why do I hold my breath and let it go, when you already know everything I've been keeping in my head? I'm not saying that I've been crying And I'm not saying that I'm the only one trying I'm not saying that I still want you Cuz maybe if I don't say it Take a breath and hold my tongue, why do I feel like I have to worry about everyone else, what do I want, does it even matter and oh my god I'm losing myself I'm not saying that I've been crying I'm not saying that I'm the only one trying I'm not saying that you've been lying I'm not saying that you're not trying And I'm not saying that I don't know you But maybe if I don't say it, somehow it won't be true