Autumn (feat. No Stars)

The sun sets far below the horizon But the leaves move slowly with the wind in autumn The leaves move slowly with the wind in autumn I missed my therapy appointment I somehow overslept from nights of drowning downing poison Wanna talk about the noise but now I'm poised to keep repeating These ugly thoughts my brain continues breeding All my choices and my shots are self-defeating I'm wasted every second Tryna get myself inside the hive beyond depression I don't need pressure I need a breath of fresh air I'm sorry I left you back there I might try to say I'm not scared But I'm scared I'm more scared than I've ever been I feel chills creeping through my skin I don't talk till I'm through the hike I say what I think till I say way too much and I don't wanna speak anymore like I know what's in store but I don't Gotta pass back the ball like Across from the square But now all the games end up being more up in the air And I'm more affected This is my life, and I fucking wrecked it Never tried to dissect it And that was the problem, I couldn't correct it Without self-reflection I never knew that I could find a direction My ego inspected I don't wanna fret, did You ever connect it When we intersected? I know that you didn't, that's what I expected 'Cause I never said it No lines in between you could read, naturally you misread it They say I should pipe down But I don't know if that's what's best for me right now I don't wanna strike out I'm wasting my life now With worries that I need to be someone else I'm a goner instead and I feel I don't need to pretend I need to be just who I am A friend and a rose and a gem In spite of the thorns growing straight out of the stem The way that the leaves always move make me never pretend I feel like I'm just who I am A friend and a rose and a gem In spite of the thorns growing straight out of the stem The way that the leaves always move make me never pretend The leaves move slowly with the wind in autumn The leaves move slowly with the wind in autumn