Sadboi Blues

I kinda hate myself and I'm not quite full of love, But somehow I get greeted with a smile and a hug. I'm a child chasing rainbows and I can't seem to cohere, And I can only vaguely tell you what I am doing here I'm just rolling around. Just can't figure it out. I don't lie on first dates but I'll certainly omit All the things that make me feel like I'm a piece of shit. If you love me I will fight you if I love you I won't let go, But if you ask me where I'll be soon expect that I won't know. I'm just rolling around. Just can't figure it out. I'm just hanging around. Just can't seem to get out. I go outside my house but not outside my head, And I don't see an outcome where we don't all end up dead. Don't know if I should fight it or just try to live my life, But no matter what I do I just can't feel right. I'm just rolling around. Just can't figure it out. I'm just hanging around. Just can't straighten it out.