Steel (Fall Apart)

I don't like the way that you won't stop before you say something to me I just can't ignore. I know that it's a trap but I take the bait and every time I do it it's always the same. I don't like the way that you say you will try to treat me better but you never do. You tell me it's my fault and I'm not good enough. I feel I fucked up something but I don't know what. My head is always spinning and I don't know what is real. I'm losing what's inside me and I don't know how I feel. I know it's just your head and not your golden heart. You can only do so much to me before I fall apart. I don't like the way that you constantly use the fact you're sad to try to get to me. I fear if I don't play my part I'll make you hurt. I feel so controlled and it makes me squirm. I'm running out of answers and I wish you would try to find some help just like you know you should. Instead you put it on me or ignore it, but I can't keep you going or take another hit. My head is always spinning and I don't know what is real. I'm losing what's inside me and I don't know how I feel. I know it's just your head and not your golden heart. You can only do so much to me before I fall apart, Only do so much to me before I fall apart. I know that you are kind and always try to do what's right, but I can see you struggling with your current mind. Please try to find a path that can help you start to heal, 'cause I can't take much more of this I am not made of steel. My head is always spinning and I don't know what is real. I'm losing what's inside me and I don't know how I feel. I know it's just your head and not your golden heart. You can only do so much to me before I fall apart, Only do so much to me before I fall apart. You can only do so much to me before I fall apart.