Body Scars

I have a bruise on the surface, of my heart. It hurts cause, if i go deeper Its a curse, i'm going to disperse myself from you Take a look at my eyelids And you wonder why is It sliced open I cant close em Afraid to sleep to see and dream future me And not make it become reality When i was younger i fell took a crack to my head Then i was rushed to the hospital bed And took stitches to where i bled, to fix it But they missed that, i had permanent damage and it was my anger that I couldn't manage To take control of I went back to the doctor out of love Took his head and shoved It into a staple gun I asked him wont this be fun You took my emotions from me Because you didn't fix me fully So i pull the trigger and run I have these body scars That's what makes me, me Thats what makes me bleed Color For you to see What these scars Have done to me Personally Each one of them Is a stepping stone That i had to fight Through To get here And i know now This is just the beginning And i'm not quitting Check out whats on arm I don't call this harm To myself When i was 11 Back in grade 7 Everyone was Erasing their skins For a challenge I tried to erase my existence For some balance I did that shit everyday for a week And the teacher kicked me out before i could speak I mean what can i say It was cool to see my skin rub away And watch it bleed I didn't grief I put it up for display To show how much of the game i played And now its just a scar on my body today I have these body scars That's what makes me, me Thats what makes me bleed Color For you to see What these scars Do to me Personally Each one of them Is a stepping stone That i had to fight Through To get here And i know now This is the beginning And i'm not quitting This thing on my neck Is what keeps me in check From an accidental suicidal death Like a dog leash Because i am a deadly beast My wrists hurt and the pain increased I'm not the one to complain please I'm 19 Yrs old, i sit and ask why me Ill probably Cut them off will see And Do you see my smile It was a gift a while Back When i took a whack To my mouth And blood started to poor out I look like the joker Just look a little closer