Tears

It's so sad I listen to songs that catch me in my feels But cant let my emotions peel From my skin, shed then heal Put my emotions into motion I want to drown in an ocean Of my own tears Why is this so hard for me Is it cause I'm not sad constantly If i go to deep then I'm depressed I just wanna cry so i feel refreshed Is this what makes me all stressed I wanna cry When a have a sense of loneliness inside I am deprived of what I want to show on my outside I wanna have tears Is that so hard for me to hear I wanna have tears Brain says not in front of peers I wanna have tears Emotions turning into fears I don't know if it will come to this But when death hits My close relatives Will I feel a deficit Or feel the opposite Laugh and not cry cause I cant cope with shit. Thats pretty fucked up I should feel remorse for it. But I don't The only time I've shown tears Is when my anger sheers This emotion Hits hard I have a notion Let go of the drops have it flowing Down my face I'm look out of place Angry and crying I'm just trying To hold them back Because I am all wack I wanna have tears Is that so hard for me to hear I wanna have tears Brain says not in front of peers I wanna have tears Emotions turning into fears Crying doesn't mean i will just break down But build up my self a new form in the ground That doesn't mean It cant be Joyfully, expressed I don't have to be upset and stressed Its an emotion within me I hold back and seize So nobody can see Who I truly am Now I'm opening up breaking my dam I feel like a new man. Showing my sensitive side And not having to run and hide This time I can cry without feeling less pride I just wanted tears I can have that without fears Now I have tears I feel blessed that I'm here