A Song I Wrote at 4:32am While Tripping on Acid

These thoughts have been around for As long as I can remember They float around my mind like the Snow in December That's me over there Chillin alone under the weather Crashing down to the ground like Those towers in September Yeah I know That I'm cold And i know that I'm bitter Always Losing control of my temper Just feelin too much pressure It's Day six on this bender Just tryna relax n re center I Can't find any pleasures Or any people that I treasure I'm Fucked up, I cant keep it together I feel like such a fuckin failure Keep telling myself that things will Always get better I just have to keep going I can never surrender, No never Surrender I can never surrender, No never Surrender All this shit up on my mind, its got Me reminiscin Always thinkin bout the past only Clouded my inner vision Tryna step out this mess , that's very Self inflicted So I can move on with my future, Confident in my decisions I know I'm just trippin, my regrets Locked me in this prison I can't keep on sinnin I'm just way to damn willin Living life like I'm on a mission Just here to keep on slippin So it's here that im sittin And I'm sipping Pipe, it's twistin Now I'm hittin Now I'm twitchin And I'm spittin with precision Yeah my body thinnin Eyes glistenin Looking like im barely livin It's myself that I be killin The thought of death keeps me Grinnin When he come for me I won't be Flinchin Yeah it's Chillin But this is how I'm feelin Shut your mouth and learn to listen Don't be askin fuckin questions Look for the signs that I've been Missing You can do your own thing make You're own decisions Just remember lifes a bitch And she is very unforgiving. But lately these thoughts seem to Carry more weight Because they've left me here with no One but myself to hate. Is it fate? Trying to Teach me to appreciate? Or do I over think and fabricate Get irate and instigate These things on which I suffocate?