dear stability

The day that I left I was forced to forget what it's like to enjoy the darkness of the night The year that I spent pining and grieving to get you back I was not cut out for that You never treasure the tiniest details until they're gone Like memorized roads or dancing around a room without white walls Now you are gone I never asked for them to string me along while I cry alone Lost in the flames of half-written songs and desperately wishing for them to be the one that's wrong Oh I miss feeling safe by my windowsill Breeze embracing calm before the thrill Gotta take a step in this long hike Sick of being fruit that isn't ripe Time tells me that I'm too young to know What I wanna do, where I'll go Can't you just go with the flow Oh no they always say things get better but they never do As long as I'm without you I'll never Look at nature the same way again Ocean always gives me a sad grin Oh can't you see our sense of sanity has disappeared for over a year But I'm trying, not sure if I'm living or surviving Now you are gone I never asked for them to string me along while I cry alone Lost in the flames of half-written songs and desperately wishing For them to be the one that's wrong Can't you understand that I'm not okay I can barely get through another day so I count them down twelve, eleven, ten Please don't make me do this again Now you are gone I never asked for them to string me along while I cry alone Lost in the flames of half-written songs and desperately wishing To be back where I belong Dear stability Do you miss me