Pretending

I know about the pictures you deleted From the time when you wanted lives with me And all of these things that I know I shouldn't tell you That only now I am remembering I hate the way you said I didn't want you Since you looked for ways that you could let me go But it's hurtful to think that the stories I lived You replaced with narratives that I don't know Lookin' through pictures Of my future wedding ring But I'm only eighteen now Should've known it didn't mean a thing Playin' house on the weekends Was only just pretending Like a really cruel, alluring play "Pretending to be in love with me" Oh... I hate I couldn't feel things like a person Cause god forbid I feel something today Like sitting in the confidence and joy Doesn't also have a little bit of pain You said that I was somehow wrong For not giving unconditional love When I'd felt and I'd seen all that "love" that you give Ripping out all the flowers with weeding gloves Lookin' through pictures Of my future wedding ring But I'm only eighteen now Should've known it didn't mean a thing Playin' house on the weekends Was only just pretending Like a really cruel, alluring play "Pretending to be in love with me" I never thought I'd have to put my defense up After defending you for so long You think they're all obsessed with you But Darlin', how you are wrong