Mediocre

Mediocrity hit me like a jab to the throat I'm crying in the bathroom, scared of rocking the boat Doing alright I guess but not good enough Put your makeup back on Now you're acting tough Foundation stains, eyes red Kinda wishing I was dead Don't know where I'm going but I wish I was there instead Mediocre, mediocre Laughing at myself like I am the joker Don't know who I think I'm kidding But it's not me Mediocre, mediocre Playing myself like it's poker Like I've lost already Please, just take it and leave Stare at my reflection in the mirror Thinking oh my god, I don't want to be her Where exactly can we go from here? Is this what it's like to be insecure? It's not that nice and I'm not that sure That I ever want to do this again Don't know what I'm doing but I'm losing Scrutinise myself without improving When did self awareness become such a curse? (Such a curse) Mediocre, mediocre Laughing at myself like I am the joker Don't know who I think I'm kidding But it's not me Mediocre, mediocre Playing myself like it's poker Like I've lost already Please, just take it and leave Don't know how to talk, that's rare Feel like I'm sitting but I'm sliding off my chair No motivation, just isolation If it's a race I'm out like the hare Used to be a tortoise, slow and steady Now I'm all on my own and I'm just not ready Not sure where I'm racing to anyway (anyway) Mediocre, mediocre Laughing at myself like I am the joker Don't know who I think I'm kidding But it's not me Mediocre, mediocre Playing myself like it's poker Like I've lost already Please, just take it and leave Mediocrity hit me like a jab to the throat I'm crying in the bathroom, scared of rocking the boat Doing alright I guess but not good enough Put your makeup back on Now you're acting tough Mediocre, mediocre Laughing at myself like I am the joker Don't know who I think I'm kidding But it's not me Mediocre, mediocre Playing myself like it's poker Like I've lost already Please, just take it and leave