Jaded

I lack enthusiasm Theres a fault inside my atoms I am typically so drained and bored I talk with just sarcasm Yes, i know it's a bad habit There is no life left inside me anymore Exhausted but not sleepy And i feel my body weakening But my boy knows how to cheer me up I dream of sunny places Where the palm trees shade our faces But i don't think that the way I've been set up And in a better scene I'd be reckoning with all of my insecurities Get my body clean And be happy with no worries in my sleep Grab my new blue jeans And for once look in the mirror and not hate what i see Ignore what consumes me And never have to greet mistakes that seem to define me My mouth seems to be empty Though my brain is always working Still, how can a body feel so fucking numb? I sense my threads unwinding And my consciousness is spiralling But I'm trying not to bother anyone The person that I'm meeting But have no interest in seeing Is telling me what i already know I'm vexed and so resentful That my mind can never settle But I'm never gunna let these feelings show And in a better scene I'd be reckoning with all of my insecurities Get my body clean And be happy with no worries in my sleep Grab my new blue jeans And for once look in the mirror and not hate what i see Ignore what consumes me And never have to greet mistakes that seem to define me Its always towered Over me I've smoked for hours Watching the tv screen Corrupt my thoughts With the news i have seen Go drown in the the pool Cos your caught in your dreams