The Lie

Though I know the truth I think I'll make up stories And I'll tell them to myself "You barely make the grade, and he may say he Loves you but he'll leave you soon enough" Why do I love the lie? While it's killin' me inside Telling lies to myself just to feel like I'm alive Isn't good but it feels like it should cuz it gets me high, but I feel like I'm fallin', I feel I'm fallin' I feel like I'm fallin', I feel I'm fallin' apart Trying to stay humble so I beat my heart up, now Addicted to the guilt So it starts to speak the myth that I'm no good, it Satisfies me, I admit So why do I love the lie? Cuz it's killin' me inside Telling lies to myself just to feel like I'm alive Isn't good but it feels like it should cuz it gets me high, but I feel like I'm fallin', I feel I'm fallin' I feel like I'm fallin', I feel I'm fallin' apart I'm protecting myself from the truth if the truth is hard I don't want the surprise of a knife going Through the heart, and I feel like I'm fallin', I feel I'm fallin' I feel like I'm fallin', I feel I'm fallin' apart Fear of the vulnerable I've gotten too comfortable Here within the dark side of my mind Habits can only die hard This one just might leave a scar But I gotta break me of the lie Being good to myself even though it can feel like hell Telling truths so I heal all the bruises I gave myself So what if I'm fallin', I know I'm fallin' It's fine if I'm fallin', I'm fine with fallin' apart Oooh, oooh, aah Oooh, oooh, aah Oooh, oooh, aah Oooh, oooh, aah